Positivity

It’s been so long!!

I haven’t written a post in ages!!

I haven’t been too busy but I haven’t been in the mood to write anything either.. And my wifi is acting up so that’s kind of annoying show trying to be online :/

I’m going to Ireland in two days, well technically one day now cos it’s after twelve.. And I can’t wait! It’s my birthday next week and I just want a nice night out with the nearest and dearest just having plain good old fun! We are even doing karaoke like the good old days when all of my girls were around and we used spend hours getting wasted and singing our hearts out, badly!!

I’m now at the stage of trying to pack, which I hate! I don’t mind shoving the things in a suitcase but I have serious trouble picking which things get shoved.. waaaahhh!! And I’m only bringing a 10kg suitcase which makes this painful because I need clothes for 8 days!!

But I have my birthday outfit ready to pack and that’s the most important part 😀

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Getting To Know You *sings*

A to Z About Me blog questionnaire

I have seen a few blogs posting these types of get-to-know you posts so I think I might have a go. I’m a bit sick of writing about the same things so this might jog my brain a bit!

Do read, enjoy and comment or re-blog with your answers!

A. Age: 29 and 9 months

B. Bed size: Kingsize double which currently has leopard print sheets, and which I normally share with my beautiful boyfriend 🙂

C. Chore that you hate: anything involving my hands getting dirty, I also gag on the smell of bleach so I hate mopping and cleaning the bathroom

D. Dogs: I absolutely love dogs, I can’t have any where I live now but our family pets are in my mums, two miniature Jack Russell’s called Minnie and Muffin

E. Essential start to your day: A cuddle and kiss from my boyfriend and a cold drink!

F. Favourite color: I tend to wear a lot of black, but I am a girly girl who loves pink too, especially neon!

G. Gold or Silver: GOLD!!! No question here anyone who knows me knows I love all gold everything!!!

H. Height: 5’8″ (that’s such a guess)

I. Instruments you play: At the moment I don’t play any instruments but I am trained in piano up to a grade 6 diploma, unfortunately I gave up in my early teens and I wish I hadn’t

J. Job title: I’m technically unemployed and looking for a full time job (which I am struggling with and it makes my life annoying) but I am a makeup artist who does some freelance work when possible

K. Kids: I actually cannot wait for the day I get to have a child, it’s my purpose in life!!

L. Live: I guess live your life the way that makes you happy, try be positive and be kind and helpful to others, be honest and be grateful for what you have.

M. Mother’s name: Caroline … Sweet Caroline do do do good times never felt so good .. This woman is amazing!

N. Nicknames: I actually have a few! From young I was called fifitrixibell which then had many versions fi, fif, fifi.. All from fam and friends.. and most recently Trixi, from my old work friends. Also I had a nickname of Nons because of some kid that couldn’t say Fiona and called me Nona which for shortened to Nons.

O. Overnight hospital stays: Just one night when I got my tonsils taken out a few years ago.. It was totally not as bad as people tell you lol

P. Pet peeves: I have so many pet peeves I couldn’t even list them, that could be an idea for a post lol.. But I do get extremely annoyed with bad drivers, people who walk slow in front of me, people who are very fussy with where they eat (too dirty, I see a hair,it’s too run down), people who are annoying drunks, people who are late or change plans.. Lol I told you there’s a lot

Q. Quote from a movie: “nobody puts Baby in the corner”

I was raised on dirty dancing and that’s the vital line!

R. Right or left handed: Right handed, I can write mirror writing with my left hand

S. Siblings: I have two younger sisters, one at home in my mums in Ireland and one in Perth, Australia

T. Time you wake up: Varies every day, because I’m unemployed 😦

U. Underwear: I hate thongs so rarely them, I wear boy shorts or French knickers mostly and I love pretty bras and lingerie sets.

V. Vegetable you hate: I’m not a huge fan of vegetables in general, I don’t like turnip, parsnip, swede, carrots or green beans.. I eat a lot of potato, broccoli, cauliflower and mushrooms

W. What makes you run late: I am rarely late in any way shape or form, it would be a train delay or extreme traffic that made me late, I always arrive earlier than needed!

X. X-Rays you’ve had: I’ve had a few, I broke my arm in two places when I was about 14 and I badly sprained my ankle around that time aswell so more x-rays, and also I had braces so had regular mouth x-rays at my orthodontist.

Y. Yummy food that you love: I LOVE FOOD! I adore cheese and eat all sorts of cheese in a meal or as a snack or whatever I can! I love potato in any form, baked, mashed, roasted, chips.. My favourite meal is usually a huge bowl of pasta, creamy and cheesy with chicken and mushroom or something like that. I also adore a rare steak smothered in garlic butter! I love savoury foods more than sweet but for desserts I love cheesecake or profiteroles yummmm now I’m just hungry lol

Z. Zoo: I’ve been to Dublin Zoo and Fota Wildlife Park in Ireland, and also been to Amsterdam zoo twice. Don’t think I’ve been anywhere else. I love feeding time at the zoo or also seeing the monkeys go crazy!

Feeling Irish-er

There’s something about being away from your homeland than makes you feel a lot more attached to it. I feel so much more Irish since I’ve lived outside of Ireland! And I think sometimes I must be exaggerating in my brain how lovely it is at home because if it was that lovely why did I leave!?

I was born in Ireland in 1984. To be honest I can’t tell you much about the country in those times! I went to a catholic girls school because that was the norm. As far as I know there was only one school that was for non catholic children back then. I went on to yet another catholic girls school for secondary education. While at both schools there was a big emphasis on religion and we would go to the church often and have school masses and all that jazz. While at school we used to learn our prayers and hymns in the Irish language. I can still reel off the “Our Father” in Irish (Ár nAthaír) or sing some of “Céad Mile Failte Romhat a íosa” which was a hymn at my First Holy Communion all those years ago!

In my teens I went on a cheap package holiday to Tenerife with my mum, sisters and my best friend. Me and my friend would sneak out in the evenings and go to clubs and to the Irish bar. Here we kinda fell in love with the idea of Ireland through hearing the old songs and laments in the bar. Each night we would be singing along to the rebellious Wolfe Tones songs or other Irish classics like “The Irish Rover” or “Ride On” and it started to feel kind of nice to be a part of this little Irish community in another part of the world.

Irish music really gets to me nowadays, when I hear the old rebel songs or the really old songs about the beauty of Ireland or Irish women I get all nostalgic! I feel like I’ve been away from Ireland for a long time even though it’s only been 13 months! I think I had left Ireland behind in my head a long time before I left the country though. For years I listened to American rap and hiphop and then British grime and rap, I immersed myself in different cultures, dialects and beliefs through this music. I’m not saying I want to be some freak who listens to old Irish music all day but sometimes when I’m in the mood il put on some of my favourite pieces from Riverdance, or listen to some Christy Moore and I really enjoy it! Irish musicians and composers are some of the best in the world (maybe I’m biased but I don’t care) and the music can sometimes be so haunting and beautiful. Anything with the harp, tin whistle, bodhrán or uilleann pipes is so typically Irish.

More recently I heard of the Dropkick Murphys song “Shipping Out To Boston” and it reminded me of that musical part below deck in the movie Titanic where they are with the lower class Irish drinking Guinness and doing Irish dancing. The energy in both pieces and yet the Irish feel from the music it just makes me feel proud and honoured that I am Irish and that we are talented!

Now when I’m having a bad day,or sometimes even a good day, I will go on YouTube and find some nice Irish music to get in my brain and help me feel close to home and to our heritage. No matter where I end up living and what culture my partner is from I am still planning to keep my Irishness alive and pass it down to my children. I will want them to know their history and background, teach them the old folklore stories, the music and poems I loved. It could be a little while before that happens but when my baby is in my tummy il be piping them some calming Enya or a verse of “Oró Sé Do Bheatha Bhaile”.

I guess when you are away from your home country you get to enjoy it for what it is, without the daily pressures of life clouding your judgement. I for one am proud to be Irish and will continue to be for the rest of my life!

I love his Brown Eyes so much..

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nTnPF8zizWo

Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trusts
and he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven’t argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trusts
and he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

i’m so happy so happy that you’re in my life
and baby now that you’re a part of me
you showed me
showed me the true meaning of love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trusts
and he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul

First world problems

No matter how bad I think my day is or what kind of drama I go through I just need to keep things in perspective.

Firstly, I have my good health and I am so thankful for that. I have an amazing family, boyfriend and friends. I still have a roof over my head, and if I don’t I have a mum who will take me in. I still eat well everyday. I can afford to smoke casually. I can buy toilet roll, washing powder, shampoo, toothpaste and other necessities when I need to. I have access to wifi and I have a laptop. I have a huge TV, thanks to my dad last year. I have plenty of clothes, some still with tags on. I have more shoes than I can wear. I have jackets for the winter. I have a travel card which I can afford to top up regularly. I have a drawer full of jewellery, real and costume. I get my nails done once a month and I can buy my hair dyes. The best part is even if I go flat broke over here, I have a savings account with a few thousand in it if I really really really get stuck.

Seriously my life is a party compared to some people. I need to wake up each day and be so thankful for the things I have and the things I can do for myself. Plenty of people have no welfare to rely on, no savings, not even food or a bed to call their own. And don’t forget those poor people stuck in the middle of wars or fighting in their countries. I genuinely don’t know how I would cope.

Please take a minute to just think about everything you have and what you might take for granted each day. Simple things like showering, eating, travelling on a bus… Not everyone has those luxuries believe me.